‘Above all what matters is not to lose the joy of living in the fear of dying.’

‘Many healthcare professionals that I’ve encountered refer to a patient’s cancer journey; indeed I had an article published describing a patient’s journey through biological therapy. This particular case history described my involvement with a medical doctor’s experience of renal cell carcinoma and self-administration of immunotherapy. He was very keen to share his experience to educate and inform other health professionals and I now find myself in a similar situation.

‘I have ‘journeyed’ from nurse to patient when diagnosed with grade 3-breast cancer. Of course, I’ve experienced various health problems before this time, but I never spent a night in hospital, unlike members of my family who have experienced serious illness and hospitalisation on several occasions. Consequently I’ve always regarded myself in the caring role amongst family members and over the years I’ve used my nursing knowledge and skills to help them deal with both the physical and psychological issues of their various disease processes. However, being diagnosed with breast cancer has now changed me from nurse and carer into a vulnerable ill person with doubts and fears for my future. To restore some sense of purpose while on sick leave and help me to get through each treatment stage, I decided to keep a daily journal of my experience.’
Kate Hayward, in her Preface

* Kate’s story

'Adds to the canon of literature that is the patient perspective of their illness by, unusually, documenting the experience of a nurse-cum-patient. Any text that allows us to explore the lived experience and therefore, we hope, learn something about our patients, our care and ourselves is a boon to the library.' CANCER CARE NEWS

'A good book for a nurse who is newer to the field or even a patient undergoing breast cancer treatment.' DOODY'S BOOK REVIEW SERVICE